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The mood had shifted uncomfortably and Tommy immediately regretted ever bringing it up in the first place. He was here to improve the other’s mood, not bring it back down again. But sometimes you had to talk about these things and as much as he hated discussing his own problems, he wanted to help others with theirs, especially his best friend. So he listened and nodded sympathetically, even though his instinct was still to go find Jamie and knock some sense into him (that just spelled bad idea, and he was slightly disappointed about having morals sometimes).

“That’s shitty of him,” he said, even though he was sure that they weren’t at the putting him down stage yet, the words just slipped out. “I mean, you guys are, like, married,” the word sounded almost odd, and made his stomach twist uncomfortably, “The fight can’t have been that bad. And shouldn’t he be calling to tell you that he’s alive? He can’t leave you worrying like that.” Tommy let out an annoyed sigh because he just hated seeing Spencer this upset. “What did you fight about anyway?” he asked curiously, then added, “If you don’t want to answer anything, you don’t have to.”

He knew Tommy was only trying to help. Talking about things was a good thing,Spencer usually loved it. But it was kind of hard in this situation .And then Tommy mentioned they were married and Spencer couldn’t help but twist the simple silver band on his left hand.  He didn’t regret it of course,but not telling Tommy about it was kind of an asshole thing for him to do. He considered just coming out and saying the whole reason they fault but he didn’t want to say ‘oh because I mentioned you’ because he wanted Jamie and Tommy to get along,or at least be civil to each other and that would not be the way to do it.

Another thing he knew was that Tommy was not fond of Jamie and this whole situation probably made him hate the younger male even more. Spencer nodded along to his words,because Jamie walking out was kind of a shitty thing to do,but Spencer couldn’t say he wouldn’t have walked out too,if he ya know,had somewhere to actually go. Spencer was definitely more the jealous type than Jamie. He shrugged slightly “I mean,I’m sure he’s fine,if anything really happened I’m his emergency contact” he nodded slowly,as if that was a good enough explanation.  And then he shook his head “It was just a big blow up,ya know?” he then adjusted himself in his seat “Wanna watch a movie,or like,get out of this place?” he hoped for the latter,he had been cooped up to long.

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He knew Tommy was worried about him that was evident, he was sitting here with him making him eat delicious tacos. He wanted to tell him, he wanted to tell him that Jamie and him fought because after they decided to elope in Vegas Spencer mentioned Tommy’s heart being broken if he found out and Jamie may or may not have gotten angry that Spencer was always thinking of Tommy,but he couldn’t ,he couldn’t do that without somehow hurting the beautiful boy next to him. The last thing he ever wanted in the world was to hurt, or lose Tommy and both might just happen if he told Tommy about the current situation.

Spencer finished off the taco in his hand quickly, because he was a slob and because he really wanted to play Mario Kart. Wiping his mouth on his sleeve, he took the remote from Tommy’s hands and he snorted softly sat his words. “I win all the time without you letting me win,fuc k you “he nodded and shoved him slightly before shrugging “But since you came all the way over here, I might let you win”

“You think that,” he countered, “But maybe I’m just a good actor.” He shrugged nonchalantly, then pushed the start button. “You better not let me win, I’m going to beat you fair and square.” It was unlikely, of course, since he wasn’t even very good at this game and what he said had been a total lie, Spencer just beat him every time. Mario Kart was not his strength with all the fucking waterfalls and bridges… It puzzled him how anyone could do it. So as today was no exception, he tried (he swore he did, or maybe he would pretend like he didn’t, because 7th place was just embarrassing), but lost, and threw his controller down on the cushion next to him.

“This doesn’t get boring for you? Beating me all the time?” he teased, leaning back against the couch and turning his head to look at Spencer. There was still this sad look in his eyes that didn’t look like it was going away any time soon and it caused this painful ache in his chest that he didn’t know what to do about. “If you want to talk about it, I’ll listen,” he said, even though he was sure that sentiment was already expressed. “I just… I don’t like not knowing what’s hurting you so badly.” He wore a concerned look on his features as he watched his friend’s reaction. “But I don’t want you to feel pressured to tell me either just… whatever, the offer is there.”

Spencer rolled his eyes at his best friends comment. Tommy sucked at this game, they played almost constantly when they were together, so Spencer knew this for a fact. And besides, it was basically all he did when he wasn’t eating, having sex or playing guitar, and considering he hadn’t really done any of those for the past five days, he was either playing Mario kart or crying. Or both, usually it was both. He laughed and threw his remote on the space next to him, a smile on his face for the first time in four days. He clapped Tommy on the back and shrugged “I would say I’m sorry for embarrassing you, but I’m not”

“Of course not, do you get tired of sucking at this game?” he asked, eyebrow raised, the smile still present on his lips. It may have not been gleeful smile but it was a smile nonetheless. His smile faded when Tommy asked him if he wanted to talk about it. He sighed; he’d have to tell him eventually, right? He took a breath and turned his body to face the taller male. He cleared his throat and tried to form the words in his head but instead they kind of began to spill out of his mouth “Jamie and I fought….and he walked out, hasn’t called, or texted or been home in four days” he nodded slowly “I know he’s at Jazz’s, at least I hope that’s where he’s at, he wouldn’t dare go back to his dads” 

I think that possibly maybe I’m falling for you. Yes, there’s a chance that I’ve fallen quite hard over you. No one understands me quite like you do. Through all of the shadowy corners of me.

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Tommy smiled softly when Spencer complied and ate a bit of food. If his friend had turned down Taco Bell, he would have been extremely worried… not that he wasn’t already. Because he was and it was kind of driving him crazy that he didn’t completely know what had caused this. It had to do with Jamie, that much was clear, and that kind of made Tommy want to find him and knock some sense into him.

Since he couldn’t do that, he shook the thoughts from his head. He pulled out the video game and put the disc into the game console. With a remote in each hand, he sat down on the couch and handed one to Spencer. “I need to know if you want me to let you win,” he joked, bumping his shoulder against his friend’s and shifting so that the sides of their legs were pressed together.

He knew Tommy was worried about him that was evident, he was sitting here with him making him eat delicious tacos. He wanted to tell him, he wanted to tell him that Jamie and him fought because after they decided to elope in Vegas Spencer mentioned Tommy’s heart being broken if he found out and Jamie may or may not have gotten angry that Spencer was always thinking of Tommy,but he couldn’t ,he couldn’t do that without somehow hurting the beautiful boy next to him. The last thing he ever wanted in the world was to hurt, or lose Tommy and both might just happen if he told Tommy about the current situation.

Spencer finished off the taco in his hand quickly, because he was a slob and because he really wanted to play Mario Kart. Wiping his mouth on his sleeve, he took the remote from Tommy’s hands and he snorted softly sat his words. “I win all the time without you letting me win,fuc k you “he nodded and shoved him slightly before shrugging “But since you came all the way over here, I might let you win”

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Days, it had been days since he talked to his husband. They had a fight and Jamie packed his bag and took off to Jasmines house. Spencer had left messages, tried to call him, all of that good stuff but nothing. They had never fought this hard and at first, he was angry, furious even. He had…

Tommy had no fucking clue what was going on with his best friend but he wanted to make it better. All selfish wishes aside, they were best friends above everything and he knew how much Spencer was hurting… for whatever reason. So when he posted about drinking his troubles away, Tommy had to do something. He wasn’t exactly sure what yet, but he was hoping that just being there would be a good start.

So he knocked on Spencer’s door and was greeted by a sobbing best friend who was clearly a wreck and it broke his heart. But he just collected the other in his arms and held him tightly, letting him cry, though it seemed like he had been doing too much of that lately. “I brought you Taco Bell for when you feel like eating,” he said, gently ushering the two of them inside and shutting the door behind him. “So you can talk about it or we can totally get your mind off of it. I’m all yours, whatever you want to do. Hopefully that includes sleeping because it doesn’t seem like you’ve done much of that.” He swiped his thumbs under Spencer’s eyes to clear away the droplets of tears that had gathered there.

He was probably being an asshole, with the way he had simply fallen into Tommy’s arms and expected him to pick up his mess. But, Spencer would without a doubt do the same thing for the taller male. Their friendship was the one thing Spencer could quite possibly always rely on and he thanked the lord every day for bringing this crooked jawed beautiful boy into his life. He’d have to make it up to Tommy when he wasn’t such a blubbering mess. Maybe he’d take him to a show, or like, buy him endless amounts of things, or both.

He let Tommy usher him into the apartment and he sighed at the mention of food. When had he last eaten an actual meal? Ice cream and cookie dough didn’t really count. Why was he not born a girl because shit he was an emotional mess? He took a breath and sighed slightly when Tommy wiped the tears from his eyes and fuck, he was the most amazing person he knew. He had so easily put his feelings aside for him and Spencer loved him for that. He swallowed before placing his hands on Tommy’s cheeks, the tears still in his eyes but he willed himself not to let them fall again “Have I told you how much I love you?” he raised a triangular shaped eyebrow, his voice cracking at the end of the question.

When standing in front of him, Spencer’s eyes glistening with unshed tears, Tommy realized how gorgeous the other man was. He knew it before, of course, but sometimes moments like this happened and they came as a sudden reminder. Whatever Jamie had done to cause this to him didn’t matter, how he could stand doing anything to the precious boy in front of him, Tommy had no clue (and found it completely unfair that Jamie got to have this perfect boy and Tommy didn’t).

“Doesn’t hurt to hear it again,” he said, placing his hands on Spencer’s cheeks as well so that they were just looking at each other for a while. “You need to put a warm washcloth on your face because you look like a mess,” he stated, dropping his hands and entwining one with his best friend’s to drag him in the direction of the bathroom. “And then we can play Mario Kart or something and I’ll force feed you because you need to eat.” He would save listening to what was wrong for later, currently he was on a mission to stop Spencer’s piercing hazel orbs from spilling over with tears.

Spencer took a breath when Tommy’s hands were on his cheeks. Fuck,he loved this boy more than he could explain and just looking at him, he couldn’t help but want to kiss him. And it wasn’t just the fight with Jamie that had put the though through his mind. Just, Tommy did everything for him. He loved him unconditionally and Spencer couldn’t possibly imagine what he would do without him.

“Thanks “he chuckled slightly, sadly at his best friends comment. He was sure he looked like shit. He let himself be led off to the bathroom and he rolled his eyes slightly, playfully. “I really do love you for this, I don’t even know how to thank you” he nodded slowly. His breath caught in his throat for a moment before shaking his head, this was Tommy,the one person he could be completely honest with “And I’m sorry I’m, putting you through this, I know you don’t want to deal with my heartbreak” he shrugged. This man, cleaning up mess after mess, putting himself through pain to deal with Spencers,god Spencer loved him and needed him and he was and idiot,more than an idiot.

Tommy busied himself with soaking a towel with warm water once they were in the bathroom. He shrugged when Spencer spoke because as nice as it was to hear, he still didn’t think it was that big of a deal. They were best friends and best friends did this kind of thing for each other. “It’s not a big deal,” he muttered, handing the soaked towel to the other boy so that he could sooth his face. “I know you’d do the same for me, anyway.”

Once they were done with that, Tommy dragged Spencer back into the living room and pushed him gently onto the sofa. He put the bag of food he had brought in the other’s lap and gave him a look, conveying that he’d better do what he was told. “Eat,” Tommy said, motioning toward the bag before walking over to the television and sitting down in front of the shelf of games. “What do you want to play? Your choice.”

 “Doesn’t mean I should be any less grateful” he shrugged and took the rag from him, pressing it to his face though he knew he’d start crying again eventually. He was a huge mess at the moment and he couldn’t really help it, when the tears wanted to come, they did, and it usually took a while for them to stop. He sounded like a pussy. And he didn’t really care, though; he knew he probably should have.

He kind of felt like a child, the way he was being dragged around and told what to do. But, it didn’t really bother him. It was Tommy and he was taking care of him and it was okay if he was childlike right now, he deserved to be. He crossed his legs Indian style when he got pushed down onto the sofa and he stared at the bag of food in his lap. He didn’t really want to eat but he figured since Tommy had gone out of his way to come here and get him food and shit he might as well. Opening the bag he pulled out a taco and basically stuffed it in his mouth. “Mario Kart” he mumbled around the food in his mouth with a shrug. 

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Days, it had been days since he talked to his husband. They had a fight and Jamie packed his bag and took off to Jasmines house. Spencer had left messages, tried to call him, all of that good stuff but nothing. They had never fought this hard and at first, he was angry, furious even. He had…

Tommy had no fucking clue what was going on with his best friend but he wanted to make it better. All selfish wishes aside, they were best friends above everything and he knew how much Spencer was hurting… for whatever reason. So when he posted about drinking his troubles away, Tommy had to do something. He wasn’t exactly sure what yet, but he was hoping that just being there would be a good start.

So he knocked on Spencer’s door and was greeted by a sobbing best friend who was clearly a wreck and it broke his heart. But he just collected the other in his arms and held him tightly, letting him cry, though it seemed like he had been doing too much of that lately. “I brought you Taco Bell for when you feel like eating,” he said, gently ushering the two of them inside and shutting the door behind him. “So you can talk about it or we can totally get your mind off of it. I’m all yours, whatever you want to do. Hopefully that includes sleeping because it doesn’t seem like you’ve done much of that.” He swiped his thumbs under Spencer’s eyes to clear away the droplets of tears that had gathered there.

He was probably being an asshole, with the way he had simply fallen into Tommy’s arms and expected him to pick up his mess. But, Spencer would without a doubt do the same thing for the taller male. Their friendship was the one thing Spencer could quite possibly always rely on and he thanked the lord every day for bringing this crooked jawed beautiful boy into his life. He’d have to make it up to Tommy when he wasn’t such a blubbering mess. Maybe he’d take him to a show, or like, buy him endless amounts of things, or both.

He let Tommy usher him into the apartment and he sighed at the mention of food. When had he last eaten an actual meal? Ice cream and cookie dough didn’t really count. Why was he not born a girl because shit he was an emotional mess? He took a breath and sighed slightly when Tommy wiped the tears from his eyes and fuck, he was the most amazing person he knew. He had so easily put his feelings aside for him and Spencer loved him for that. He swallowed before placing his hands on Tommy’s cheeks, the tears still in his eyes but he willed himself not to let them fall again “Have I told you how much I love you?” he raised a triangular shaped eyebrow, his voice cracking at the end of the question.

When standing in front of him, Spencer’s eyes glistening with unshed tears, Tommy realized how gorgeous the other man was. He knew it before, of course, but sometimes moments like this happened and they came as a sudden reminder. Whatever Jamie had done to cause this to him didn’t matter, how he could stand doing anything to the precious boy in front of him, Tommy had no clue (and found it completely unfair that Jamie got to have this perfect boy and Tommy didn’t).

“Doesn’t hurt to hear it again,” he said, placing his hands on Spencer’s cheeks as well so that they were just looking at each other for a while. “You need to put a warm washcloth on your face because you look like a mess,” he stated, dropping his hands and entwining one with his best friend’s to drag him in the direction of the bathroom. “And then we can play Mario Kart or something and I’ll force feed you because you need to eat.” He would save listening to what was wrong for later, currently he was on a mission to stop Spencer’s piercing hazel orbs from spilling over with tears.

Spencer took a breath when Tommy’s hands were on his cheeks. Fuck,he loved this boy more than he could explain and just looking at him, he couldn’t help but want to kiss him. And it wasn’t just the fight with Jamie that had put the though through his mind. Just, Tommy did everything for him. He loved him unconditionally and Spencer couldn’t possibly imagine what he would do without him.

“Thanks “he chuckled slightly, sadly at his best friends comment. He was sure he looked like shit. He let himself be led off to the bathroom and he rolled his eyes slightly, playfully. “I really do love you for this, I don’t even know how to thank you” he nodded slowly. His breath caught in his throat for a moment before shaking his head, this was Tommy,the one person he could be completely honest with “And I’m sorry I’m, putting you through this, I know you don’t want to deal with my heartbreak” he shrugged. This man, cleaning up mess after mess, putting himself through pain to deal with Spencers,god Spencer loved him and needed him and he was and idiot,more than an idiot.